VRP Vol 2 Chapter 20

I told myself “double releases every day hell yeah!” But I got distracted 😦

On another note I am trying to make my sentences seem more uh… English; Reading back on the first chapter I did I realized how strange everything sounded when I tried to make the translation flow more towards the Chinese direction, it’s more localized now.

-Helli


Due to the embarassment of the youngboy the voice in the darkness was as gentle as a feather, yet it was extremely serious, as if it were a vow.

 

Ling Xia’s body trembled unconsciously, this child……is serious.

 

His hand had already started moving mechanically along with Yu Zhijue’s……

 

The young boy’s panting that was hard to constrain had sounded in the darkness, illicit and full of temptation, Ling Xia closed his eyes embarassedly.

 

This is the last time, I can’t do this again……

 

During the night Yu Zhijue hugged Ling Xia’s waist and plastered himself to his chest and slept, Ling Xia looked out at the few winter stars outside the window in a daze, he felt extremely bothered in his heart.

 

Although he had never smoked in his life, he urgently wished there was one in front of him now.

 

Ling Xia lowered his head, he could faintly see the contours of Yu Zhijue’s face, the other party breathed evenly, he was clearly sleeping very sweetly. He had never been liked by anyone in such a way before, If Yu Zhijue were a girl, it didn’t matter whether he was a minor or not, he reckons he would’ve probably yielded, and then he would wait for her to grow up……

 

However, he imagined a scene where two men were living together, in mutual love, and his scalp tingled. He remembered that during his university days there was a boy living in the dorms who gave him a kiss on the cheek as a joke, he was so disgusted at that time he nearly threw up. If it were a man, he really could not accept it.

 

This child is really quite outstanding, he could imagine, after three or four years, he could attract the attention of all the girls. So, he should not be like this……

 

This is what is called better to hurt for a short while than to hurt for a long time, the later some things are explained, the more cruel it is.

 

Ling Xia inwardly decided.

 

The next morning, Yu Zhijue noticed that they had slept in an embrace as soon as he woke up, he quickly remembered the nightly endeavours of the two, and his ears blushed red. He tried to act natural and lifted his head, and suddenly saw two panda eyes.

 

Ling Xia turned his face with a some intent to avoid him, with a slightly hoarse voice he spoke:”Ah Jue, you’ve awoken?”

 

He couldn’t sleep all night, and now the early morning sunlight had shone in, he could easily see the chaotic state of the room–Due to that fierce make out session last night, the originally tidy room fell into disorder.

 

Yu Zhijue clearly remembered it, he quickly turned his head elsewhere:”Mm……Why do you look so dispirited?”The Yu Zhijue during the day clearly was not as gutsy as the him during the night, towards this young man who had just started to understand love, he was so innocent that he could not bear to hurt him.

 

Ling Xia sat up and briefly tidied up collar that had been torn apart, he paused for a few moments when he saw the red marks on his clavicle, then he quickly stood up and tied up his belt as well.

 

He mechanically tidied up the room, and slowly tried to speak: “Ah Jue, that, there are some words that I must say to you.”

 

“Ah Jue, you couldn’t still be asleep are you? I want to come up with a new move, test it out with me at the practice field!”Song Xiaohu’s spirited yell sounded out from outside.

 

Ling Xia really wanted to choke the protagonist to death, the lines that he had spent all night mulling over, do you think it’s easy to muster up the courage to say it out?

 

Yu Zhijue quickly walked out, when he reached the door he shot a glance at Ling Xia, and quickly turned his gaze elsewhere.

 

The early morning sunshine landed on the adolescent’s delicate face, it could remind a person of many beautiful things, such as dewy green leaves, the first lotus to bloom after the rain, the drifting clouds in the azure sky, and so on.

 

“Wait for me to return in the afternoon, let’s eat together.”As Yu Zhijue finished his sentence, the edge of his mouth slightly curved upwards, and he disappeared out the door.

 

Ling Xia slowly put the candle back on the table, he would very much like to hold a pillar and smash his head in a few times, how did it come to this?

 

After tidying up the room and having a simple meal, Ling Xia took out the half-designed schematics, but his heart felt so bothered that he couldn’t continue drawing. He went straight out to the river outside, quietly watching the river water in a daze.

 

His bout of struggling was all so that he could change the final fate of Yu Zhijue, not to abduct teenagers to go down the gay road……

 

Ling Xia miserably sighed in shamelessness, to tell the truth, recalling how frighteningly mighty Yu Zhijue’s vigour was last night in the darkness, he even had an urge to run off. He was like a frog caught in the bite of a snake, there was no possibility for him to resist at all……Can he still let this develop on? Thankfully Yu Zhijue didn’t know much, otherwise sooner or later his chrysanthemum couldn’t be safe!

 

Thinking of it this way, Ling Xia would sigh for a moment, and shake his head for another, he had sat dazedly by the river for one morning, till Yu Zhijue had returned and he still didn’t notice.

 

“What’s with you?”Yu Zhijue’s brows furrowed, he had been watching Ling Xia for a good while.

 

Ling Xia stumbled with a start, and reflexively took out a green silk handkerchief to wipe the sweat from Yu Zhijue’s forehead, when he saw the faint blush on Yu Zhijue’s ears, and only now did he realize that his actions were improper, he could only brace himself and wiped it clean.

 

“Where’s Xiaohu?”Ling Xia looked behind.

 

Yu Zhijue carefully observed Ling Xia’s profile:”He’s still at the practice field, why were you sighing just now?”

 

Yu Zhijue had naturally won thie battle, Song Xiaohu didn’t want to accept it, and improved his new move step by step at the practice field, Yu Zhijue left him alone.

 

He also didn’t know why, but they had only separated for four hours, and he had already felt unbearable, he wanted to return even before they had battled, to take a good look at this person.

 

Ling Xia’s movements had become quite clumsy under Yu Zhijue’s bright gaze that concealed a searing heat, he really doesn’t understand, which part of him could attract the other party? Can’t men just mutually admire each other? How could a feeling of love sprout?

 

Fortunately Yu Zhijue didn’t come over to hug him and what not, Ling Xia felt relieved.

 

Ling Xia quietly put some distance between him and Yu Zhijue, watching the surface of the river he inwardly took a deep breath, mustered up his courage and said:”Ah Jue, there’s something I must tell you, you……first promise me you won’t be angry.”

 

Yu Zhijue’s sensitive sixth sense had already noticed his avoidance, and an ominous promonition filled his heart:”What do you want to say?”

 

“Ah Jue……that, that thing from last night……”Ling Xia didn’t dare to look at Yu Zhijue’s expression, he lowered his head and spoke in one breath,”I really don’t like……that isn’t good……kissing, and those other……it’s not right for two men to be together like that……”

 

The pressure surrounding the area got lower and lower, he couldn’t help but stutter as he spoke, but still bravely:”I really like Ah Jue……But……Not that kind of relationship……if a man were to be with a man people will laugh, Ah Jue you will find that women are also very wonderful……”

 

Yu Zhijue clenched his fists tightly, his white teeth had almost bitten through the skin of his lips to draw blood, he interrupted Ling Xia’s words and spoke hoarsely:”What do you mean? Are you in love with that Murong Xue?”

 

Although the adolescent’s voice strained itself to remain calm, it had brought with it anger and sadness that was hard to conceal, Ling Xia felt so guilty he wanted to bury his head in the dirt.

 

Did he hurt this child in the end?……

 

Ling Xia forced himself to continue speaking, as he started speaking, his words came out more and more smoothly:”No, I treat her as if she were my sister. But similarly, I treat Ah Jue and Xiaohu the same, I see you both as my younger brothers……”

 

In actuality they still were not the same, in his heart he was more partial towards Yu Zhijue, he worries for this stubborn young boy, but at this time, he can only say it in such a way.

 

Yu Zhijue’s chest heaved rapidly, he could not believe it at all. At night they had clearly……This man had still held onto him, the two were kissing so intimately, doing things that made one’s face red and heart beat yet extremely comfortable……

 

He gritted his teeth and interrupted Ling Xia:”I don’t believe it! You promised that you would always stay by my side!”

 

Ling Xia braced himself and lifted his head, he suddenly saw the two beautiful eyes staring fiercely at himself, at that moment that pair of eyes were sad yet angry, just like an injured little wolf. He reflexively spoke:”I’m sorry!”

 

Sor……ry?

 

Last night this man had also said sorry, yet it gave him so much joy that he felt as if he were going crazy, but now……it felt like a big hole had been torn open in his heart, like an empty void, and at the same time it was so painful he found it hard to breathe.

 

This man, said that he and Song Xiaohu, and even Murongxue were the same, that there was not a bit of difference……

 

This man, would be like the others, marry a woman in the future, and live with her?

 

Absolutely……not allowed!

 

Yu Zhijue’s breathing grew quicker, with a forceful movement from his leg, he had held Ling Xia and fell into the river.

 

The calmness of the river flow was suddenly broken, Ling Xia was caught off guard, he asked in horror:”Ah Jue?”

 

The two were quickly consumed by the river water.

 

Ling Xia’s ears buzzed due to the sudden water pressure, by the time he adapted his eyes to the environment at the bottom of the river, only now did he realize that Yu Zhijue is pressing down sternly on his shoulders, in a position that was very close to himself!

 

The two sunk into the river, they were very close to each other, those beautiful pair of breathtaking eyes stared at himself without blinking……Ling Xia had even felt that the other party wanted to kiss him.

 

He twisted his head in embarassment, but Yu Zhijue kept his body steady, he did not make any movements at all.

 

Ling Xia quickly ran out of air, he struggled to surface from the water, but was stubbornly pushed down by Yu Zhijue time by time.

 

Ling Xia suddenly turned his head again, and only now did he notice the daunting look in his eyes.

 

This child is trying to drown him?……Ling Xia’s heart felt stunned, his whole body trembled.

 

But he quickly denied the thought, because although Yu Zhijue’s gaze made one terrified, it was full of sadness.

 

–He was waiting for him to take the initiative to kiss him!

 

Ling Xia suddenly understood Yu Zhijue’s meaning, he yelled in his heart: Fuck! How black-bellied is this child!

 

He knows, now that he had explained everything, he can not compromise with him no matter what……

 

It’s only going to hurt for this while, it will be fine in the future……

 

His brain’s response slowly became sluggish, both his ears began to ring, his limbs had gone soft, even the scene in his eyes began to waver……

 

Yu Zhijue waited quietly, waiting for that man to close in when he couldn’t bear it anymore, then he could kiss him, and pretend that the other party was just making a joke earlier……

 

As time passed by, he could clearly feel the discomfort that Ling Xia was in, his body had even begun to twitch, yet he had never came over from start to finish.

 

He watched Ling Xia’s eyes that had gone slack as if he were a piece of wood, his heart was in a mess, yet he was thinking back on the scene in the ocean from before.

 

At that time, even if the other party was unconscious, in his embrace he was so obedient, even if they were drifting around in the vast ocean, he felt joyed as if the entire world belonged to him.

 

Now regardless of what this man said, would the other party have only him in his eyes for the rest of his life? Never to see anyone else again?……

 

But, at the thought of not being able to see this person ever again, his whole body began to shake uncontrollably.

 

That sort of feeling, he did not want to experience it again……The one in pain was clearly the other party, yet his own chest hurt so much he could barely breathe……

 

Yu Zhijue fiercely pulled Ling Xia and jumped out of the water, he crudely left him at the shore.

 

Ling Xia’s hair plastered messily over his face, he coughed out several mouthfuls of water, and his limbs felt sour and weak–Thank god he had restrained his breath early, if not he really would’ve died!

 

But thankfully, his bet was right.

 

Yu Zhijue stood coldly and watched his flustered look, a light smile curved on the edge of his mouth:”As you wish.”

 

He feigned calmness and walked away, but actually his chest felt unbearably painful.

 

With every step he took, he left this person one step further, he could already feel that unbearable pain.

 

Ling Xia finally recovered some strength, his face that had gone green had also slowly recovered its redness.

 

 

He dazedly watched Yu Zhijue’s back, He knew how much this stubborn child was suffering right now–just like the him from those days.

 

After a long time, he mouthed wordlessly:”I’m sorry.”


Notes:

Chrysanthemum – Butthole

24 thoughts on “VRP Vol 2 Chapter 20

  1. “gave him a kiss on the cheek as a joke, he was so disgusted at that time he nearly threw up” ugh so much homophobi… Oi Ling Xia! You’re from modern world, come to your senses!
    I told you didn’t I? Why didn’t you refuse him directly at the start T.T If you did it, you wouldn’t hurt him this much T:T:T:T:T:T:T:T:T:T:T:T At the end of the chapter idk why but i thought about the comments for the novel 😀 I’m sure there will be lots of people swearing to him.(especially for his “I’m sorry thing) Hope he will read them -.-
    Thanks for the song and chapter ♥ You don’t need to push yourself to give 2 chapters per day.. You’re already doing the best already, rest well!

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    1. Nah wouldn’t say hes a homophobe rather just straight, it’s mentioned that he does know somebody gay but nobody bashes him and just quietly supports him. Translating this chapter I kept thinking “👁ling xia you dumbass”
      But we gotta go super fast sonic fast 😍though in part I’m quite hyped up for the next project👀

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    1. he still sees him as a brother, so to reciprocate love without feeling it is crueler than coming clean with your real thoughts. Sadly, both of them are inexperienced with love, and Xia only has his other world’s morals to stumble about…hopefully they can grow together

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  2. Ling Xia is still in the closet… that’s hard because athough in the modern world being gay is accepted, but living in traditionalist mainland china you can’t expect someone straight to turn queer within just a day. Its just like forcing someone gay to turn straight. That shit aint good yo! RESPECT EACH OTHER’S PREFERENCES

    So don’t be too harsh on him 😂👌 wait patiently for the next volume!

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  3. ”No, I treat her as if she were my sister. But similarly, I treat Ah Jue and Xiaohu the same, I see you both as my younger brothers……”
    Ling Xia oh Ling Xia, he has dug up a really big hole between them both

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  4. GODS!
    I HATE THE STRAIGHT MAN SPEECH. GODS I HATE THE STRAIGHT MAN SPEEXH SOOOO MUCH.
    Hello.
    Loving someone is good.
    Loving someone who doesn’t love you is hard and complicated. Especially if they don’t love you back.
    Like. Ermagod.
    Ling you should’ve rejected him. Like outright rejected him.
    YOU DIDNT REJECT HIM AT ALL.
    Instead trying to reason with him it’s wrong and is not right.
    Like what the actual fuck.
    You are making him hurt and feel even more bad about this whole thing.
    Just reject his feelings since you can’t accept him. Like. Hello. What are you doing.
    Kept saying I’m sorry.
    SHHT THE FREAK UP YOU HASTARD

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  5. I want to thank you for picking up the second volume and did a great job translating. There are not many chinese novels that doesn’t feel like it’s been translated in google translate 😋 your translations were superb 🤗 but I understand why you wanted to quit this novel. After reading Mo dao zushi I can’t bear to read the adventures of an uke that doesn’t have a strong and likeable character. I mean he’s allright but Wei Wu Xian is so unique compared to his character. Anyways it’s a good novel and many thanks again

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    1. E-eh, did I say that for this novel?? I completely forgot lol, I did enjoy this. I didn’t translate vol 3 and 4 because someone else was already doing them and skipped vol 2. Thanks for reading, I’m glad you enjoyed it! And it doesn’t sound like google translate because I don’t translate with google translate 😅, I use it only to search for synonyms and the like.

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      1. I think I read something like that in your comments but I might’ve get it wrong 😋 I’m reding the 4th volume and the uke kinda changed for the better, so it’s all fine ^^

        I use google translate for japanese sometimes as well but just to get a second opinion 😁

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  6. Hahaha but didn’t he curse for the author to get his chrysanthemum to be pierced over an dover again? And for the women he likes to be lesbians??? Maybe all of those cursing will be inflicted on LX instead! He’ll get pushed down by the villain and that Murong chick will turn out to be a lesbian! ╮(╯▽╰)╭

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  7. you know for being a modern man but being so against the idea of two men loving each other, LX makes me so uncomfortable. and if it wasn’t for this one thing i actually really admired him a lot. i feel so disappointed because he’s such a decent mc too. if he was straight then okay. but why must he be so repulsed with it and even afyer all the nsfw stuff they did ugggggh. and to say i’m sorry like that to ah jue like does he even know what for exactly? pain galore~

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